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Andrew Rutajit on Finding Yourself

by Andrew Rutajit

Know Yourself - These words were the driving force of Socrates. Many of the Gnostic texts begin by saying that when you have come to know yourself, you will have come to know God. Or, that the kingdom of God is inside you and when you know yourself you will find it. Or your body is the temple of God, meaning that God dwells within you. Consequently, the religious quest for God is not the answer; you must first come to know yourself.

I firmly believe that the answer to the mystery of life is not a word or a phrase; one must become the correct answer physically and mentally.

When St. Paul talks about the Christ in You, this is what he is talking about - our essential identity, the fabric that makes us alive and awake, is Divine. Not our identity, meaning how we appear to others, but how we appear to ourselves when our ego is dissolved. Because, you are the one who will be the final judge and jury of your own soul, not a man on a throne in heaven. We seem to spend a much greater time dealing with how we appear on the outside, as opposed to how we appear on the inside.

I think bad dreams are like miniature "bad trips", it's the only way for our consciousness to arrest our attention. What are dreams anyway? Does your consciousness go away when you are asleep, or does your body? I propose that we stay with our consciousness during dream-state while we put your bodies in a safe place…in a bed. This is when we go to fairyland and have "dreams". But these dreams are brought on by the "Spirit Molecule", DMT; ask someone who has ingested exogenous DMT to explain their experience and compare their reaction to someone explaining a dream they just had. The similarities are eerie. Dr. Strassman showed, in DMT The Spirit Molecule, that with heavy doses of DMT, the subjects had little to no memory of the experience...not unlike a dream induced by the same chemical compound.

Christian tradition teaches that the goal after this world is heaven and that the way to heaven is thru Jesus. Jesus says, I and my father are one; as a result, Jesus represents God on earth, or perhaps someone discovering that he or she is God. Jesus is saying that we must become human and solve this human riddle of finding yourself before we can move to the next realm. A Gnostic's perspective would be that we could have both, that we can have heaven here in this world. That not only are you a body in this universe, but this universe is in your body. This is the essence if the alchemical marriage of the Macrocosm and the Microcosm...the rebis is one of my favorite symbols; very few truly understand its meaning:

It's two, two things in one.

So, what techniques did our ancestors use to find themselves and to discover this universe within their bodies? In brief…I suggest, after many years of seeking an answer to this question, something was ingested.

Ezekiel was told numerous times in one biblical chapter to eat something when he had visions of God; he then became a prophet. Adam and Eve ate something that gave them the knowledge of good and evil. The Israelites had visions of God after eating Manna. A large part of the foundation of the Christian church is communion, where it is said that the body of Christ is consumed. Native Americans eat peyote and have communion with the spirits. Shamans and Medicine Men worldwide and all throughout history have eaten sacred plants (entheogens) with the purpose of having an inner journey, or voyaging into the broad landscape of the mind…literally having a communication with the deepest parts of your self, as well as with the plants and the "spirit world". These archaic techniques involving sacred plants are prime examples of methods of finding yourself. The more recent techniques are failing; I’m speaking of the use of crackers and wine with the (false) Doctrine of Transubstantiation whereby the priest performs a magick act - converting one substance into another via hand motions and spoken word; although the substances appear to not change at all. These are prime examples of methods of finding a god. However, we aren’t trying to find a god…we’re trying to generate God within us and become one with God.

Some will argue that Christ is the Anointed One and that I am leaving out the Holy Oils. I will touch on this briefly and refer you for further reading in "Astrotheology & Shamanism". The word CHRIST has a very specific meaning. Christ was a title given to anyone who was anointed with holy oil. Christ is the Anointed One, as Christos means – The Anointed One.

The Greek title "Christ" is the translation of the Hebrew word Messiah, which in English becomes "The Anointed". The Messiah was recognized as such by his being anointed with the holy anointing oil, the use of which was restricted to the instillation of Hebrew priests and kings. If Jesus was not initiated in this fashion then he was not the Christ, and had no official claim to the title.

Sex, Drugs, Violence and the Bible: The Pagan Origins of the Judaic and Christian Traditions
~ By Chris Bennett and Neil McQueen.

I am of the opinion that because of this fact, there may have been many people with the title "Christ". However, I also believe that the Christ of the Bible is a personification of the Holy Oil itself. When you think of Christ as the oil, or as the medicine or Entheogens themselves, the miracles do make much more sense than trying to make a super hero out of "him". Look up the word "anthropomorphism". Oil walking on water and healing the sick with it’s touch is only the beginning. If Jesus the Christ was a real person, then why is it that we have no need for anyone to teach us, when all we need is the anointing to teach is about all things? (1 John 2:27) This entheogenic "holy oil" was also used by the Monks who would shave rings on their heads and marinate a skullcap in entheogenicly infused oil. This cap was then placed on the fresh razor-burn and the ring around their head would serve as a sponge, preventing the oils from running into the eyes and down the face.

I support the idea that Jesus Christ (aside from being a sun god) was an anthropomorphism of the healing power of drugs and the drugs themselves, which just so happened to be, in this case, in the form of essential oils.

I think people look at our history before modern medicine and assume that drugs were just as controlled back then as they are today...and just as readily available too. Priests would communicate with the heavens just as the shaman did - with sacred plants (again, consider Native Americans and Peyote...the Chief was their "High Priest"), though the Church killed the practicing Shamans during the pharmacratic inquisition, burning them alive, stealing their knowledge.

Keep in mind just how the character of Jesus is depicted. Jesus was not only persecuted by the religious authorities, he confronted the religious authorities and called them fools. In addition, there were figures in history who actually did exist, people like Socrates and Galileo who upset the religious authorities. This is what it means to be a Gnostic; you stand up for what you believe to be true, despite what is politically correct. So if you hear me say that eating mushrooms that cause hallucinations is enlightening, stop and think for a moment. Sacred plants like this have been used in cultures as far back as we can trace human history. Only now are we being told that they are bad. The authorities are telling us (living in this paradise world) that if we eat of this forbidden fruit, they will kick us out of this paradise, and put us in a jail cell. What if I told you that this forbidden fruit will not kill you, that it will open your eyes and you will become gods, knowing yourself AND knowing for yourself what is good and what is evil...would I be like Lucifer telling you to eat the forbidden fruit? Or would this put an end to the annoying What Would Jesus Do question? - Confront the current religious and political authorities, call them fools, and try to enlighten the masses by saying Take and Eat.

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